Motor Mouth

 

For 21 years I rarely talked at all and now at 84 I talk too much and they laugh. My brain is corrupt and I should just keep quiet but how?

What should I do with all this nonsense coming out of my mouth?

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So sad my mother left and I was a constant reminder of my mother and my father beat me and his dad laughed. My brain is gone it is full of my life on planet earth. I am at a space. I take up space. The world is around me. I see in color, I feel the pleasure and pain. I used to work but my body says no more work just listen and watch. I talk a lot but the world wants me to be quiet but I cannot stop without effort. Maybe I should go back to where I was at 21.

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Most children are hugged by their mother. My memory of my mother was her giving me a bath in a double deep sink behind a home in San Gabriel. I called my aunt and told her about my memory of my mother and she said it was her giving me a bath and not my mother. So there is no memory of my mother, no hug or love from my mother.

So sad.

And now they want me to be quiet. Out of sight out of mind.

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I do love coffee, honey and cream